Unauthorized update on Cathy

Cathy Brown again - I separated this post from the last one since this one is serious. First of all - its the middle of the night and I can't sleep. I wanted to update you all and suggest something we could try, but of course, can't ask Cathy's permission to post this.

Cathy is in a low spot right now. She is having abdominal pain and not sleeping. I'd like to go into a bit more detail here, but I will await her permission to do so first.

Suffice to say I have two issues to address here.

First - I know we are praying and keeping Cathy in our thoughts. I am suggesting anyone who'd like to also try directing our prayers and thoughts in a more specific manner - aiming them specifically at lessening Cathy's pain so she can sleep better.

For those interested, here is something to try. In a quiet place where you will be free from distractions, get comfortable. Lying down or sitting in a really supportive chair is a good idea. Close your eyes and take a few really deep and relaxing breaths, trying to let your body calm itself down and free your mind from any distracting thoughts or what I like to think of as the 'committee' - the part of our brain that is telling us we should clean the house or do some yard work or yada, yada, yada.

When you feel relaxed and centered, picture Cathy lying comfortably in her bed The more realistic and the more details you can supply, the easier this will be. For example, I picture Stitch curled up next to her. Envision her fully relaxed and emotionally at peace. Think of a healing light - try to picture it in whatever colour you find pleasing that reminds you of health - mine is a light royal blue that is luminescent with sparkles. Imagine it originating in her liver and see it slowly growing until it envelops her entire body. In your body - feel how it is pervading her body with warmth and relaxation. See this light washing away the pain she is having - perhaps like waves eradicating lines on the sand - with each pulsation of the light more and more pain is erased. When you have fully removed her pain, see her relaxing so deeply she melts into her bed, as if she no longer has bones and is basically a pile of warm goo. Now concentrate on seeing her sleep deeply and restoratively through the night. Awakening full of peace and energy, ready to face her day.

Secondly and on a personal note - I find myself awake often during the night - my mind occupied with thoughts of Cathy. I struggle with my own emotions which are up and down like a roller coaster. I am having a lot of pain in my heart (not just emotionally but also physically in my chest area where my heart is) - which I know is my nervous system trying to deal with my emotional energy. During the day I often find myself at work, operating in a fog, still feeling like I've been hit by a truck. I find myself standing in the exact place I was when Cathy told me and am again struck with such a deep guttural pain I am surprised to find I can still stand up and don't just crumple in a pile of goo (which, to be honest is what I'd truly like to do).I am wondering if any of you are experiencing this as well or is it just me going crazy?